Hm.. This one may sound a little bit moronic.
I'm having this nonsensical thoughts right now. But I think my sense of jealousy is waaaay more active than my any other senses right now. So let's just listen to what it's gonna say :)
I have been trying soooooooooooo soo so so so so effin hard to understand that sometimes not everyone is like me who can stick to one person only when ive commited to that someone and need that someone's attention only, and can actually ignore anyone else and get stuck with the one im commited to. That sometimes some people need moreeee (or much more) attention from others and mere my attention is never enough. That sometimes not everyone can be nice to one opposite sex only (read: his/her boy/girlfriend), but thinks he/she SHOULD/MUST/OUGHT TO be nice and near and the center of every opposite sex's attention.
I always think not one of those things above makes sense. But maybe it's just me who dont really know much about people. Maybe there really is someone like that. Oh well yeah, there is.
I've never been in this kind of circumstances before, since I'm a veery veery jealous person, so I am always mad at my significant other if they do or act like any of those things above. But this time, I can't. Literally. Because that's who he is. And I don't actually want to change him just for the sake of my own feeling and I don't want people to see me as a demanding girl who wants eveeeery single thing works for her without thinking other's feeling. But somehow I don't really think that doing a relationship with this kind of person can really work. I mean, come on. You're old enough to get serious with a girl. Or if you don't think so, at least I DO. I'm not really into a cheesy easy-come-easy-go high-school love, I need something more serious I need to settle down.
So what's the conclusion? I think it's better for that someone to really think about my feeling and try to settle down first and fulfill all his wishes and dreams about having all girls crushing on him and etc etc, BUT without me. Because he can get pretty much any beautiful girls he would want, so why me? Haha. A demanding jealous so ordinary lover who will only makes it harder for him to fulfill all his wishes to be that number one ladies man or womanizer or wtv he wants. Haha. So, why doesn't he have fun with his youth first, and then when he had enough, he can calm down eventually, and he can finally settle down with one girl. Well it will still be fine if that girl's not me. At least he gets what is best for him.
Oh why am I always so jealous? Why can I relax a little bit? DAMN IT!
Well this one writing is not only moronic, SOK DEWASA banget, sok ngerti banget. But wtv, I just need to say this ooooooooooout looooooooud!
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